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Waiting On A Man, Waiting on My Life @shantellewrites January 13, 2025 I didn’t live a life with my father. I just have a handful of mindset shifting memories. This blog excerpt, from an unfinished draft, is paired with 2 poems I wrote on Sunday, April 26th, 2026, in the grasses of UNCC-Charlotte, drawing a tree, prompted by my identification with Jeannette McCurdy’s (Sam from Victorious!) first novel, Half His Age: A Novel. . If my daddy didn’t want me, what man is going to want me? That’s really my core belief.  I want to believe it for myself, so I will expose and release the belief I have now. Let’s let the past go…it’s been draining my life. I AM FROM “THE BEST OF TIMES AND THE WORST OF TIMES.” HOMELESS SHELTERS AND BREAKERS MANSIONS POVERTY TO PURPOSE PASSION STIRS MY SADNESS WITH ABILITY TO CONNECT… FAST! BUT NOT LONG… LIKE MY FATHER, I WAITED AT THE WINDOW FOR NO VOICE TO CALL HIM, WHICH HE MAKES MY RESPONSIBILITY RESPONSIBLE FOR EVERYONE AND EVERYTHING BUT ME, SO I NEVER ...

Fight! @shantellewrites Feb 9, 2026 I’ve been in Fight mode my whole life. Can I feel safe before my birthday tomorrow? My mom walked her 17-yr old self to the hospital in labor. I was born on the ‘fifth’ floor like “Hustle Man”. I was born with a dislocated arm, and my arm had to be pinned up to my opposite shoulder. My crib was in a drawer at my great uncle’s house. My ONE memory of him is years later, when he tried to get me beat for not greeting him when I walked into the kitchen at my great aunt’s house. That means my first home couldn’t have been great. I’ve got two slits above my pussy from a double hernia. That means as a baby I was left without comfort to cry so much, that my insides spilled out. I don’t remember any of this, but they say your body keeps score. My mom was the smartest in her electronics class, beating out all the middle-aged white men. That’s how she made the best of getting kicked out of highschool, when she became too pregnant. Those...

Antidepressants don’t work, You just hate your job. Listening 13 minutes @shantellewrites After years of neuroscience research, I began this blog once I found my beliefs validated by Johann Hari’s book: Lost Connections: Why You’re Depressed and How to Find Hope. Years later, I finished it after working about 5 more jobs. I had to start a new job before I completed this blog—to double-check I’m writing it ‘Wright’.  Depression doesn’t mean something’s wrong with you.  “Depression is the body saying, ‘Fuck you! I don’t want to be this character anymore.’” - -   Jim Carrey,  Depression is a call to Deep Rest. Who’s Not Acting? In low-paying jobs, you do the MOST WORK with the MOST SURVEILLANCE. The more you get paid, the least likely you are to take drug tests, punch time clocks, and beg for time-off. You get paid to think. You are a better person. In Jerry McGuire , Dorothy Boyd says to her son: “ First class, that's what's wrong. It used to be a better meal, n...

I Finally Found It @shantellewrites August 6, 2025, 9:20pm Nothing can come in between me and writing this piece. I can’t answer a text, nor respond to the email you sent me about loving this quote. Cuz otherwise it might not get written. It might be too unbelievable to a writer with “work-PTSD” (a term coined by me). [1] Unity The People in this office are United. They are 1. A Seat at the Table Accountability Teams Work-Life Balance Wellness and Stretching Gifts before Dishonor Annie (1982) | Tomorrow Lyrics "Diversity is being invited to the party. Inclusion is being asked to dance." ~Verna Myers They got it. The quote is from the Diversity and Inclusion slides in our elearning. You know every job has a set of digital lessons that bore you to death, but guarantee you at least the first paycheck. These videos are different. These videos match the vibe of the people. The people at this office truly smile at me. The people at this office are all shapes, sizes and colors in al...